today , school was as per normal . after school , went to ICT which was boring (?) then went for the BGSS idol thingy . omfg ! i did badly :( i think my journey is going to end soon . its not that i'm lack of confidence just that i feel that i'm not good enough for this . first , i'm sorry my friends if i won't make it through . i know my friend , especially amalina , wanted me to do this badly . haiyy .. i just don't want to put extra high expectations for myself and i'm afraid that if i won't get through , i myself will be fucking hurt lorr .. haiyahh ! peer pressure . hahah !
i hope tomorrow is a better day , nothing bad's gonna happen . and may god gimme lots of energy so that i won't be exhausted and so that i can study better . amin :)
p/s : shud i get myself a laptop so that i can type out my notes instead of writing 'em ? hmm .. well , i'm gonna use my own money coz i don't wanna trouble my parents ..
-everybody says we're through , i hope you haven't said it too ..
ira ; doryy ; hikuii ~
Labels: need to make a decision, prays hard
